Everyone hears the girl in Apartment 3C.
She talks fast, laughs louder, trips over her own feet and laughs again. She’s the one who greets the mailman like an old friend, waves to every dog like it’s a celebrity, and knocks over something in the hallway at least once a week. Ira Kashyap is all elbows and opinions, the kind of person who shows up overdressed to a casual thing and underprepared for the serious ones. She loses her keys twice a day and finds them in her hand. She’s chaos in motion, always saying the quiet parts out loud. She’s really funny,the quick, unfiltered kind that catches people off guard. And even when she doesn’t have it all together, she’s the first to step up when someone else needs help. But even with all the noise she carries, something often went quiet in her.
It never stopped her from anything.
She’s not quiet about who she is. She never has been. She walks like she doesn’t owe anyone an explanation, like she dares you to misunderstand her. People talk. Of course they do. They whisper words like strange, intense, intimidating. Some call her “too much.” Some call her “not enough.” Ira Kashyap hears it all, and keeps walking, headphones in, boots loud, eyes ahead. She doesn’t shrink. She never learned how.
She doesn’t wear makeup. Not out of protest. She just forgets. Or maybe she never learned how to care in the way other girls seem to. Her jeans are usually torn at the knee, not because it’s trendy, but because she climbed a fence the week before and never got around to fixing them. Her shoes are always a little dirty. She walks fast. Talks low.
She’s the kind of girl who opens her own doors. Literally and metaphorically. If something breaks in her apartment, she figures it out. If she’s tired, she pushes through it. If she’s overwhelmed, she says she’s fine. And people believe her, because she’s good at sounding okay. She’s been practicing for years.
No one really knows what she does for work. She’s always carrying groceries herself. Three heavy bags in each hand, refusing help from strangers. There’s a bruised nobility in it. Like she’s punishing herself for needing anyone. Like asking is a sin she hasn’t forgiven herself for.
Once, her neighbor offered to carry a box up the stairs for her. It was heavy, and she was clearly struggling. Chest rising too fast, hands cramping. But she smiled politely and said,
“I’ve got it.”
The box nearly tipped. He reached again.
She snapped:
“I said I’ve got it.”
And she did. But not really.
Ira is the kind of girl who’ll carry too much until her hands bleed.
Not because she wants to prove something.
But because she doesn’t know how not to.
She’s always been this way. Even as a kid. When the other girls played dress-up, she was climbing trees barefoot, mud on her legs, leaves tangled in her hair. People used to ask if she wanted to be a boy. She didn’t. She just didn’t want to be what they expected a girl to be.
She never learned how to shrink herself. Never learned the language of soft eyes and softened voices. She speaks like every word has a reason. She moves like the world is on fire and she doesn’t have time to waste.
She’s the type of girl who remembers everyone’s birthdays but forgets her own. The type who’ll bring you soup when you’re sick but forget to eat dinner herself. She will show up for you without being asked. But if she needs you, you might never know. Because asking feels like guilt.
Like weakness.
Like failure.
She’s the responsible one. The dependable one. The "sorted" one. And it’s a trap she doesn't know how to escape. Because the more she handles, the more people hand her. And somewhere along the way, she stopped knowing how to put anything down.
People don’t fall in love with girls like Ira at first glance. They don’t write songs about the ones who don’t giggle or flutter lashes or play the game. But when they do see her. Really see her. They don’t forget. Because Ira Kashyap doesn’t decorate herself to be looked at. She just exists. Entirely. Fully. Undeniably.
Not soft.
Not cold.
Just real.
And maybe loud. Maybe messy. Maybe uncontainable.
But never invisible.
And never less.
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